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Back in my room
Back in the sadness
Back in unbearable grief
And the madness
Back in my chair
Filled with chagrin
Tears welling over
Up to the brim
Back in the darkness
Weighted and black
Back as a hostage
No cutting slack
Back in the smokescreen
Of panic and grief
Where there’s no way
To obtain relief
Back in the embers
Of regret and despair
Missing old moments
Beyond help or repair
Back in the subtle
Innocuous doubt
Where there are no answers
Beyond standard clout
Back again once
Back again twice
Back again always till I
Lose all advice
Lonely and drained
Stagnant and still
Where is the hope
When I’m using the drill?
Fighting old demons
Layered on new
If only I stuck to
My original coup
But that’s not my way
Blindly I fight
Extreme examples of
Wittle and flight
Timid and foolish
Frail and small
I can’t beat this battle
Unless I lose it all